When God closes a door . . .

 

Ya'll may or may not have noticed that I've been missing in the month of May. Almost sounds like a song! I've had some life changes going on, things that I didn't foresee happening and have shaken me quite a bit. I'm in a calmer state right now and today is the first day of the rest of my life.

My workplace had a restructure and in the shifting of positions, my job was eliminated. Or rather, they made some alterations and moved only some of the roles from my team to a new team. People had to reapply, but as the opportunity came up, I knew it was time for me to let go. I've been in my role for almost 4 years, and the last 2 or 3 years have been hard. I haven't really loved my work for at least that long and it's worn me out. So I chose not to apply. My three teammates who I love dearly got the three available positions and I am so relieved for them. As for me, well, today is my final day with my organization.

My personal laptop is literally on its last legs so I knew I wanted to get one more post in on my speedy work laptop before I turned everything in at the front desk. This has been a hard season for me. I found out on May 4th and my emotions have been all over the place every since. I trust that God's got this, that He's got me. But it doesn't make this experience any less difficult and painful. I've served in this ministry for almost a decade. The people here are like family. It's comfortable and warm and safe. The world out there is a scary one. 

But I am ready to do something different. I don't know what, but something other than technical writing.

I start at a temporary data entry position at a local pro-life pregnancy center next Wednesday. Just for a month to give me something to do and I can still earn a little money. I have a severance package that will easily last me 8 months or so. That's a huge blessing. But I can't see around the corner of my life and that is God teaching me to trust Him in this desert time. I'm excited and terrified all at once.

A friend of mine, also someone who was released during the restructure, is giving me her old laptop since she bought a new one right at the beginning of May, right before the news. So this new one will be only 7 years old vs. 20 years old. I'll share some things in my journey, as I learn and discover myself apart from my job. Because I want to know who I am and not just let my identity be completely wrapped up in what I do.

Blessings to all of you and I'll touch base later. I still need to read those last few posts you made for the Children's Classic Literature Party, sorry it's taken me so long to get those read.